There are so many questions that run through my mind often. Like.....Will Adeline make it home from the hospital, EVER? Will she make it through her second and third surgeries if she does make it home from the hospital? Will we see her first birthday? Will we see her grow into a young girl? Will we be able to be a "normal" family again? Will Ellie suffer because of all the things we have to go through with Adeline? Sometimes these questions keep me awake at night and are so consuming I am not sure where the next step should be. I do fear the future sometimes. I think it is the unknown that gets me.
It seems like when we found out about Adeline's heart defect, everywhere we looked there was also a story about a child with a heart defect. I watched the YouTube video that Ben Breedlove, a boy with hypertrophic cardiomyopathy, from Austin posted on December 18. He posted it just a week before he passed away from a heart attack on Christmas Day this year. He seemed like a pretty awesome kid. His love for God was something that couldn't be questioned, but he also had an amazing peace about his situation and his life on earth.
Hopefully all the fear we feel right now can be turned into some sort of peace before Adeline gets here. Peace is something I strive for in 2012!
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